Time is like the sand of the beach. Doesn’t matter how hard you try to hold it, it will fall out of your hands. Every wave will take some from under your feet, but this doesn’t mean that hope is lost. You just need to keep standing and face the rage of the waves.
It was a normal day of the school but she was a little scared. Her homework was complete but she was not sure if it was even right or not. “May I come in” she asked gently. “Yes, please sit down”, teacher replied. It was mathematics class and her biggest weakness too. Numbers were difficult for her, everything else was too. Last year, she was able to pass only one subject, and in mathematics, she scored only 2 marks. It was her 2nd time in the same class but she was not embarrassed. Her weakness in studies was not because of her attitude but because of her inability to remember. Even last year she studied day and night but at the day of the exam, she blanked out. But she was determined to pass the class this year. She never understood anything in the first time, but she never left anything without understanding it completely. The words on the board were difficult for her but killing her desire to learn was impossible.
Exam days were near so the tension was high. The stress was visible in her eyes, but as always she was smiling. Only because of her smiling nature, everybody loved her in the class. Even she was a slow learner, teachers never hesitated to repeat for her again and again. Whenever she had some problem, every kid in the class used to help her to understand. And the kid in her self was always ready to grasp every bit of knowledge she could grasp. Teacher started the class, “So children, today we are going to do some multiplication. I am going to write two numbers on the board and you have to multiply the numbers on your copy. After completing, just raise your hands. No shouting, if you will shout you will go out of the class.”she described and wrote 2 number on the board.
She was ready for it as last night she practised for this class whole night. She took her copy and started doing it. “345 45, 5*5 is …..25, ahh yes 25. Write 2 above 4. 5*4 is 20..21…22…2 above 3. 5*3 15..16…17. Oh yes, 1725…fast fast next row”she was talking to herself in mind. She was in so much hurry that even her hands were shaking. She always wanted to complete a task before everyone else in the class and in mathematics, it could be a dream come true but it never happened and many times she used to be wrong. But giving up was never her thing and like every time she was giving her best. “and 2nd line will be…1380…ohh yess…add it…add it..fast…5 goes first…0+2=2…7+8=15…1 goes up…3+1=4 and then comes 1…it becomes 14525…yes I did it” As soon as she was going to raise her hand she realised something is wrong.”Shit (Almost in audible volume), I missed the other 1…its 5…15525.” She raised her hand tall but very soon she realised she was not the first one, even very few hands were down” Teacher asked another girl “Ma’am its 14525″. Her breadth was stuck inside her, is she right!! but there was another 1,it should be 5, before the fight in her mind could conclude anything, teacher replied..”Ahhh, no dear…you just did a little mistake, its wrong”. Her hand was now higher than everyone else. She was somehow controlling herself from shouting the answer loud and then teacher asked her. “15525”she shouted. “Correct, well done dear. You did it right”. First time she was feeling a sense of extreme confidence and proud. It was just another question in another class for everyone else, but for her it was a ray of light that she can pass her exams this time.
And the exam days approached. As the days were coming near, she was feeling more nervous. It was like history was repeating itself. Even last year, she was sufficiently prepared but her nervousness made her too vulnerable to stress. She studied like everything this time, multiple times but whenever she tried to recall it, just nothing!! First few exams went really well, she was pretty sure she is going to clear them all. Science was difficult but passing marks were sure. And now last exam, maths!! The night before exam, she decided not to study but relax. Sitting ideally she was thinking about everything!! Her life, the exam, her new class next year, what if she failed!! She slept thinking all this stuff. Next morning she got ready, ate her breakfast and reached school 2 hours before exam start time…..
To Be Continued!!!
